boooo!

okay..i just realised that this blog has been left abandon for months..

a lil sneak preview of what i'll have to post and update about..

Christmas! and maybe a little more..

Chicago..

Miss Fickled

new path..=)

new environment.new place and life..

well its been the coming third week eversince i came

and i've been really thankful for having seniors for helping me..

without them..i'll be even lost and blurr..

but then again..i've been rotting for three weeks already then..

dannng!

so far so good tho..

god's blessing..

classes starting soon and yeaaa...hopefully it'll be goood..!

Miss Fickled

afterrr so longg...

have been travelling a lot lately in the previous month..

have been facing a lot of god's creation..

the mountain tops,volcanos,beaches, seas..

places to tourist dont usually go..

they are actually pretty...

inner beauty of it are the nature and also the people there..

simple minded and they dont have any hanky-panky behind their sleeves..

a very good place to zen and refresh my mind..

would love to go back there again..

=)

im almost done with stuff..

am left with most probably a month..

once im done with my visa and yea i'll confirm my ticket..

and am gonna miss people who are worth missing..

heh..

marked by my butt..

an island in sabah..

naruto's frog..

koh samui,thailand.

lake toba ,indonesia..

Miss Fickled

emospirit...

no doubt i've been having hols for the past few months..

but to be honest these few months are the most challenging and tough times for me..

even during my final term in diploma where i had tonnes of things to do..

so what if im having my hols now?

it may seems like im enjoying my hols flying here and there..

but DO not judge by just looking at the surface..or judging a book by its cover..

i felt way better before than i am right now..

im stuck in the box being mentally abused..

nobody would really understand...

all you guys would just say..'dont think too much'

i've enough of that..

i rather not talk about it and just digest them down alone..

its hard.its tough.i cant do it on my own.

i'm falling in fact i've fallen..

and i find it hard to stand up again...

Miss Fickled

a broken wing..

as much as i've tried..

i'd still fall back..

and now im feeeling very brittle..

a normal person would have already gone nuts going through that for 1 year..

what more about me when its six years straight..

nobody would really understand..

Miss Fickled

selfish yet irresponbile seeddd in you.

sometimes it really annoys me when people are just plain selfish and irresponsible at times..

its their duty..but they just pushed it aside and expect you to do it for them..

and when u've questions and are really desperate to seek for help..they'll leave you hanging..

what kind of people is this who does not think about how people feel but themselves..

i do now want to think about it..but the matter is currently planted into my brain and cause me to think..

i dont mind going through the hassle but cant you just show a lil more appreciatiation then just taking it for granted?

if one does not voice out.it doesnt mean we are afraid or dumb to notice whatsoever u're up to or planning to lie about.

people do get bored sometimes of the excuses u've been telling and treating one as a lil lulu..

for one reason now is pushing it..and now it has beeen a stronger thought..

Miss Fickled

=(

everything is just not right this month..

i keep losing things..

things that are important to me..=(

and i wonder why..

Lil Miss Fickled