Tuesday, December 29, 2009

deja vu..

and now it's happening..

easy to be said then done..

its haunting..disturbing..

and its gonna take a while to step out from the emo path..

so long..
Miss Fickled

Thursday, December 17, 2009

the aftermath?or not.

How far would you progress?

the struggles faced to recover.

living in the shadow of your story you've created.

Everything inside your circle starts to overflow.

Leaving the wound unattended and..

you feel it bleeding..

Thinking of the misdoing you've done for history to happened

Thinking of what could be if you rewrite your role play in your story.

And so it goes on and on.

Anytime u may fall whenever anything pulls you down.

You've others behind on your back.

Waiting to lend a hand to pull you up and get you back in track.

Just dont give up.

Miss Fickled

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Life is Full of Drama

life is full of drama..
Despite many of us have secrets which has a lil spice in it..
the drama that happens may not be those we truly enjoy..
its not stagnant and changes always..
a question i need to ponder..
Am i leaving in denial because i dont want to admit even as i wish for stability?

why are there always bits and pieces left no matter how hard you try to get rid of them?
its like a donut where there's a hole in the middle of it..
why does it feels like..im standing at the edge of a broken bridge trying to save myself from falling again and again.
and each time i stand up..the self confidence level decreases after each fall..
the mask that's being put on is getting thicker each day..
no point ranting about it.
it leads to maturity at the end of the day.
u'll not know the truth by just seeing it through the cover unless you dig..
it gets you thinking and by that it turns on the emo button..
even the confusion grows everyday

reminisces.i've not gotten a decent one for a really long time..
everything is going to be buried and burnt.
trying to lie and say it's okay to myself..
a feeling i shouldnt feel.or react that way.
i dont know what to say.

sitting outside there.
i miss stoning..letting my mind run free...
if u asked me..what's in your mind?
i seriously dont know..

Miss Fickled

Saturday, December 12, 2009

air to breathe.

i survived throughout my sleepless night..
causing all my pimples to popped out..
im pretty worried for my english and fnb paper..
i did quite badly especially fnb..
seriously bad..no exaggeration added in it..
but oh well..the thing was throughout the exam period..
my friend actually called to morning call me.lol..
was so reluctant to get up..sleepless nights..

backbone hurt yesterday.
didnt really go out and stayed put in the hse.
wanted to update about the pa event but then i cant seem to change the pics's sequence..
oh well another time then..

supposingly said to be holidays for me..
but no...dont get conned..by the word holidays..
this round of holidays are for me to finish up my 13 psr reports..register for toefl and sit for it asap.

am pretty messed up lately..
siggghh..i think im gonna need to settle some stuff as soon as i can..
i need fresh air.to.breathe.
somewhere.with.good company.

Miss Fickled