deja vu..

and now it's happening..

easy to be said then done..

its haunting..disturbing..

and its gonna take a while to step out from the emo path..

so long..

Miss Fickled

the aftermath?or not.

How far would you progress?

the struggles faced to recover.

living in the shadow of your story you've created.

Everything inside your circle starts to overflow.

Leaving the wound unattended and..

you feel it bleeding..

Thinking of the misdoing you've done for history to happened

Thinking of what could be if you rewrite your role play in your story.

And so it goes on and on.

Anytime u may fall whenever anything pulls you down.

You've others behind on your back.

Waiting to lend a hand to pull you up and get you back in track.

Just dont give up.

Miss Fickled

Life is Full of Drama

life is full of drama..

Despite many of us have secrets which has a lil spice in it..

the drama that happens may not be those we truly enjoy..

its not stagnant and changes always..

a question i need to ponder..

Am i leaving in denial because i dont want to admit even as i wish for stability?

why are there always bits and pieces left no matter how hard you try to get rid of them?

its like a donut where there's a hole in the middle of it..

why does it feels like..im standing at the edge of a broken bridge trying to save myself from falling again and again.

and each time i stand up..the self confidence level decreases after each fall..

the mask that's being put on is getting thicker each day..

no point ranting about it.

it leads to maturity at the end of the day.

u'll not know the truth by just seeing it through the cover unless you dig..

it gets you thinking and by that it turns on the emo button..

even the confusion grows everyday

reminisces.i've not gotten a decent one for a really long time..

everything is going to be buried and burnt.

trying to lie and say it's okay to myself..

a feeling i shouldnt feel.or react that way.

i dont know what to say.

sitting outside there.

i miss stoning..letting my mind run free...

if u asked me..what's in your mind?

i seriously dont know..

Miss Fickled

air to breathe.

i survived throughout my sleepless night..

causing all my pimples to popped out..

im pretty worried for my english and fnb paper..

i did quite badly especially fnb..

seriously bad..no exaggeration added in it..

but oh well..the thing was throughout the exam period..

my friend actually called to morning call me.lol..

was so reluctant to get up..sleepless nights..

backbone hurt yesterday.

didnt really go out and stayed put in the hse.

heh.

wanted to update about the pa event but then i cant seem to change the pics's sequence..

oh well another time then..

supposingly said to be holidays for me..

but no...dont get conned..by the word holidays..

this round of holidays are for me to finish up my 13 psr reports..register for toefl and sit for it asap.

am pretty messed up lately..

siggghh..i think im gonna need to settle some stuff as soon as i can..

i need fresh air.to.breathe.

somewhere.with.good company.

Miss Fickled

sinful crime when u're sick..

finals's is just a week ahead..
im seriously doom.
have been jamming my brain with wine laws and all..

siggghhh..
oh welll stayed over in celes's place on fri..
because we went out to laundry to celebrate celine and eunice's bday..
was suppose to go the library but it was packed..
wasnt really in the mood that day..
lost my precious..=/
ended up sitting outside for a while for some fresh air..
and after we went to mcd at nearly 3am..
slept at 530 plus cos celes and i were pillow talking throughout the few hours before sleeping..hehehe...

the nex morning which was yesterday..
went down to klcc and pavillion with mummy jus to walked around..
and knowing that im sick..
we had thai food for lunch and dessert bar for desserts..hehe.xD
which was a total crime..
thai food was nice...sour and spicy..oohlala!

had brunch in chakri palace..

the cosy ambience of the restaurant..

our appetizer..sour stuff..yummmy!
mango salad with minced catfish..

followed by the thai four season..

this was..lovely..
tom yam clear seafood soup..
sour and spicy enough.=D

and the pad thai noodles..
too oily..=/

and walking and roaming around for hours..
we headed over to dessert bar for desserts as our dinner..lol..

snow ball..didnt choose the nutty christmas as i dont fancy nuts..
its sorta fruity with 12 mini ice cream balls with any 3 flavors.
as usualy we'll look for the shorbet most sour flavor..hehe..
passion fruit shortbet..black sesame ice cream and strawberry..
missed those time we had the ice cream and shorbet in hk..=/

and mum wanted the grape cheesecake..
didnt quite like it cos i dont really take dairy products..
and we had the minty lemon smoothiee...aaahh!!that was really refreshing...wanna know why??
lemonn!hahahaha..sour!!lovely.

another crime i've committed today was..
mcd for lunch with mummy chi mei..nicole and xe..tee hee..
there goes my toad voice..

Miss Fickled

mes amie..

you knew i was down..
but sigggh u cant be here for me.
but yet you took the initiative to send a really sweet text to cheer me up all the way from south africa..
making missing you even more!
uggghhh..i want boxing day to come quickly..
and that's when u're touching m'sia..
that simple text made my night and i totaly have forgotten the frustrations i had..
lol..im not referring to whoever u all are thinking about..
mon amie..elle s'appele rachel chua..=D

xoxo..take care huns..
continue shining for him..=D

Miss Fickled

marche..

a week ago..
we went over to foo foo's house to do our french assignment..
nice house with tonnes of mirrors everywhere...
from moment we stepped inside..
his mum looks like his sister instead of mother..
which we thought was his sister..that was how young she looked like..

and after that we headed to the curve..
was suppose to filmed our french video but ended up eating without filming..
and how can we go somewhere without a camera?

the biggest mirror in the living room..
with the mirror it looks more like a dance studio..

and later on we dined in marche..

the moment we stepped in..
the restaurant smelled like our college's kitchen..
well because it's market style..
and it was pretty warm.
the food wasnt really nice for us..

foo foo and blur queen..

jinn and ah cat..

the 5 of us..

et voila!!
we saw this..
lol..
mais..we didnt go in cos we were too full..xD

more posts coming up!

Miss Fickled

mountains..

mountains mountains..assignments are like mountains..
have beeen sleeeepin really late these dew weeks..and days..
practically look like a zombie..
oh well all 3 groups event had passed..
and it was okay..
all 3 with different interesting concept..
will update about a few soon...prob on sat..=D

My darling(laptop) is telling me to concentrate on my work..
laters!

Little Miss Fickled

bon anniversaire!

manyyy returns to Nov Babies!

HApppy Birthhhdayy!!
=D

moi blur queen..


10/11/09
which is todaaayyy..
gonna celeb in werner's!
woootss..

&&&&&&&&&&&

not forgeting our Ms Gan which is blur queen's twin..

Ms Twweeeeety..

12/11

Ms Serene
=D

13/11

Ms Christina..

16/11

Ms Tigress Lee(right)

18/11

Mr Duku

last but not least..

28/11

my yat-taf darling!
hugsss!!!

Bon Anniversaire!

Miss Fickled

Neo Lounge..

having one to decide something crucial makes a big difference in one's life..
it may sounds like im exaggerating but..oh well..nobody's gonna find out what am i referring to..except my 3 sayangs who knows..lol..
conclusion is i've come up with something and i've finally let the burden that has been bothering me out..=D

well on friday...a bunch of us went to NEO LOUNGE for a part time with a very reasonable pay..
it was a pub/lounge/bar kinda environment..
nice ambience i would say..
it was a 'Style Rock' event they were having..
with lotsa V.V.I.P's..like tunku..datuk..dato..datin..whatever u can think of were there..
even celebs..like Serena See..and those 8tv Quickie host..
then event started at 9 and we finished at around 2am plus..=)

neo's bar..

neo's pathway to tamarind hills..

us after the tiring hours...

jinne.beatrice..lisa..wei ling..

how can we miss a group pic together...
of cos not!=D

last but not least..
batang merv...

lastly we celebrated granny's 83.=D

Miss Fickled

i shouldnt have...

i shouldnt have...

it happened without me realising..

and now..

its too late..

and im the one suffering..

=/

elcerdo..elcerdo..oink..oink..

eversince we left elcerdo after our training..
we've been their kinda regular customers already..
lol..when there for sis's bday..
after that with bunch of college sayangs..
and yesterday..with kah wai and 3 other batangs..hehehe..xD

went their on our 2nd week of college for their set lunch..
k wai and i already knew what we were craving for badly over there..which was their serrano hams..hehe..
she even got a saman souvenir on her way there from the police..and she was screaming and yelling in the car..

the 10 of us..=D

and as for yesterday..
we had dinner there for merv's 2 mth belated bday..
hehe..sorry merv but hope u have a nice them..
after class we 5 went to kah wai's crib and from there she drove to elcerdo..

the 3 batang..charlie..chung and merv(muka gangster)

chung fooling around with kah wai's devil headband..

on the way there..

i was squashed into between the 2 batangs..
and merv the kayu was fooling around by doin funny things..

kah wai..charlie and chung..

chung reallly..literally and seriously enjoyed the meall..hahahahaha..

merv with our stonehorse shiraz wine..

we really think she's drunk but she kept denying..

kah wai's as red as tomato's face..

the special ribs..=D
with bbq sauce..jalepeno sauce and salsa mexicana sauce..

group pic..

we surprised him with the song and all..hahaha..xD

merv feeedin kah wai the strawbeerrryy..
bet it was really sweet...

cheersss!!
with our elcd special..

i stilll wanna go werners..=/
anyone?=D

.......

its pretty weird now..
i wonder..have you all ever feel this before or...hmmmmm...its just me..
i'll update about elcd i suppose probably tomorrow or so..
jus came back frm elcerdo with a few bunch..
andd wine wine wine...awesomeeee..

i've this sudden interest towards you..
but unfortunately mum dont let me have you..=/
but oh well i'll find my way...
i'm sure i'll own you...500D.

KLCC

am reaallly busy lately..
siggh..assignments are seriously pilling up like mountains..
classes ends so late everyday..
i dont even have time to do my things..
siggggggggggggggggh..have been eating so much lately too..
=(

last sunday the 4 guys came down las week for their vacation..
we were suppose to go down together in a gang to meet up with them..
due to the tight and so many-yet-so-lil time to do...we postpone a day later which was sunday..
turned out wayne and zombie couldnt make it..
so i went down with mum n sis..met up with them while sis and mum hang in the mall..
chris brought them around on sat and even to william's too..
met them in klcc on sunday..

met them up in californian pizza..
and went for a stroll later on..

okay i know my hair looked messy..
but i kinda like it..hahahah..lol..

i didnt wanna eat....
they forced me to..
like literally forced..
cos i had to have dinner with sis n mum in elcerdo..for her belated..

the 4..frm left: malas,me,rendy..man and enggal..
all of them are my westin colleagues and they're from indon..

that was how silly they were!!

arman

abg rendy..
with nice background..

the 4 of us and behind the camera..abg rendy..

again.

=D

tho i only met them a while..
but it was nice seeing them after sooooo long...heheeh..

after meeting up with them we went over to elcerdo for dinner..

mum and i with our kaeshler semillon from australia..red wine..
j'aime wine..hehe..

with mr werner..moi boss..

will update about my post about the sommelier competetion i attended with the gala dinner sooon..when time permits..
STRESSSS!